The moment I realized I may be a liar…

“Next Week”
“I can’t”
“I got this”
“I need this”


I don’t lie to my family, I don’t lie to my friends, or even strangers… the person I tell all the lies to is probably one of the most influential people in my life…. Myself.

Wait, isn’t it selfish to call myself the most influential person in my life? No! I am the person who influences what I do the most. I took control over how I live my life, and what I choose to do. I am the person responsible to wake up and get out of bed in time to get the kids to school. On the days I hit the snooze button, I have lied to myself… I told myself that I was going to get out of bed at 7am the night before by setting the alarm for 7am. When morning rolls around… I have lied by staying in bed. I have done myself a disservice by sleeping an extra 15 minutes instead of having a coffee and 15 extra minutes getting ready and spending time with my boys.

I’m sure you recognize some of the lies we tell ourselves.
“Tomorrow” – I will go to the gym instead.
“Next Week” – I will go for a coffee with a friend instead.
“Monday” – “Everything is best when started on a Monday, So Monday I’ll start my new healthy kick
“I can’t” – I’m just to tired, to do the laundry, clean the kitchen, or hang out with my friends.
“I got this” – I can handle it all, and I don’t need help.
“I need this” – I need this purchase to be a better me, or in order for me to feel motivated, or to clean my house, or to get work done.

I think perhaps some of the lies we all tell ourselves we mean to be truths…. I do want to be able to handle it all, but sometimes I need help. However sometimes I don’t. I want to go to the gym and start my diet on Monday, but Monday rolls around and I’m tired, or in a funk, and I don’t push to get out of it.

How do we stop lying to our future selves, our past selves and our present selves?
This in itself has to start with “me” and the respect for “Me.”
This year, I will use the 5 second rule I learned last year to get out of bed, and make the tough choices, I will not say, “Monday” unless I mean it.

Here is to all of us having the ability to take accountability for our own lives, to push forward when we don’t want to, and to keep our promises to our past, future, and present self.
This will allow you to be the most influential person to yourself.

As always,
Love, Light and Bright Blessings,

Kayleigh May

When we are really honest with ourselves we must admit our lives are all that really belong to us. So it is how we use our lives that determines the kind of men we are.     
Ceasar Chavez

1 Comment

  1. kayleigh
    January 24, 2019 / 12:30 am

    Thank you so much for your kindness and taking the time to read.

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